Tuesday, August 31, 2010
waiting for your~~
call im sick, call im angry~~
call im desperate for your voice~~
listening~
to the song we used to sing~~
in the car~
do you remember~
butterfly's~
early summer~~
its playing on repeat~
just like when we would meet~
coz i was born~~
to tell you i love you~~
and i am torn~~
to do what i have to~~
to make you mine~
and stay with me tonight~~
lol... singing at home..
very bored...
-3:40 PM
:'( i miss her....
-2:34 AM
Monday, August 30, 2010
waiting..
waiting..
waiting..
-2:00 PM
APRIL 11 2010..
I miss my post on that day..
-1:27 PM
4pm start work..
dunno what to do...
so bored..
and i kept thinking of things...
need to keep myself busy...
-1:20 PM
I know..
I feel..
I see..
No matter what i do..
No matter how hard i try..
No matter how i show i care..
I can't make you happy..
-5:18 AM
ARGH!!!!
can't sleep..
erased what i really wanted to say more than 5times...
SERIOUSLY! I'M ANGRY WITH YOU!
Everytime i see you status...
I feel like whacking you!
FUCK LAH! CB! KNN!
I won't let you take advantage!
You see got chance then suddenly you will say those things!
-2:03 AM
Sunday, August 29, 2010
after seeing those...
after hearing those words from you...
i felt really hopeless...
feeling so dead...
maybe its all gone...
It hurts a lot! :'(
-11:58 PM
i wanted to know..
but its not my business...
even if i know...
it has nothing to do with me...
skip church coz i want to know something...
i wanted to know if its true...
but in the end..
im still not sure....
=(
-10:51 PM
i wanted to know something..
what are you gonna do now...
-2:17 PM
waiting for something to happen...
i really wanted to know what am i to you...
=(
-4:21 AM
Saturday, August 28, 2010
.... don't know what to do...
im not really sure what you feel...
i wanted to ask...
i wanted to know...
TMR!!... i'll try... depends on the reaction...
depends on the outcome..
then maybe i will stop..
let go...
continue...
forget..
love...
avoid...
depends....
=(
-12:35 AM
Friday, August 27, 2010
hmm... i want to ask..................
nvm.... =(
-1:31 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
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Bad English - When I See You Smile
Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue
'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me
Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright
When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me
Baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew
And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need
When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me
Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright, so right
When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything, yeah
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain, yeah
When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile, oh yeah
Baby, when i see you smile
Smile at me
-4:54 AM
i feel that.. somehow you don't need me na...
ewan ko lang poh... pero un ang pakiramdam ko..
feeling ko masaya ka na poh....
feeling ko hindi kita mapasaya...
marami naman na kasing iba jan...
hindi moh na ako kailangan..
-12:46 AM
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Losing it all.. one by one....
-2:09 AM
Saturday, August 21, 2010
People can change .
People can forgive and give another chance .
Broken things can be mended and we can give it a try .
But why can't you ?
-2:01 PM
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don't know what to say.. :'(
-1:04 AM
Friday, August 20, 2010
It's not right to feel this way... :'(
You're nothing anymore...
You shouldn't feel like that...
Stop disturbing her...
Know your place...
You can't make her happy...
She's not interested anymore...
No use seeing her...
Your not even in her mind anymore...
She doesn't want to be with you anymore...
There's someone else already...
She doesn't love you anymore! so shut up! and go away! :'(
-3:40 AM
THEO's getting owned..
-12:39 AM
Thursday, August 19, 2010
don't know what to do anymore....
i can't hold myself back...
i want you to do what you want...
but i kept on doing things that i shouldn't do...
i don't want to bother you anymore coz i know...
i know that im just being a nuisance...
asking sutpid stuff... asking things that i shouldn't ask...
i want you to be happy.. and i know im doing the opposite...
though i admit.... i miss you more everyday.... :'(
i know we're not feeling the same....
so im really sorry....
sorry.... sorry... sorry... :'(
-3:42 AM
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
im starting to feel that im becoming a nuisance.... :'(
-11:41 PM
gotta sleep na.. my work start 5pm.. lol.
hmm.. im happy! im happy! im happy! hahhahaha...
thursday no work... i want to buy shoe, play pool,
watch movie, eat dinner outside, and.... hmmm...
-4:20 AM
"why?"
"why can't you just accept that you're nothing special anymore?"
"what should i do?"
"should i feel this way?
"you know she's happy. so stop bothering her."
a lot more....
i want to be happy...
really happy..
i want to be the way i used to be..
but i can't help it.... i always feel that way...
every now and then.. you always comes out of my mind...
always wondering what you really feel..
what are you thinking..
why did you do this?...
.......... the truth is...
i don't really know why are you doing this...
i don't really know your reason for leaving me...
i don't really know what to do right now...
:'(
-3:09 AM
though things are improving.. the feeling are still the same...
-12:08 AM
Sunday, August 15, 2010
i can't do it...
too scared to ask...
coz i already know the answer....
-12:28 AM
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
NOSE BLEEDING! HAHAHAHA!
-10:43 AM
not feeling well..
i can't make a fist out of my left hand...
but still need to work tmr..
haha.. and they put me 11am till 10.30 pm..
lol.. confirm damn tiring...
anyway.. today play bowling for the first time..
lol.. actually second.. but my first time was in 2008 i think..
and i only roll two balls only.. haha.. well who cares anyway..
hmm.. im shit at that game.. wanted to play pool but too many people..
went to arcade.. and we owned the stupid punching game.. haha..
that is the most fun thing i did today... haha.. relieve stress.. hahaha..
then eat at some park.. hmm.. didn't eat well.. dunno.. haha..
then.. hmm... sit down.. talk.. play.. that's all..
went home with my parents.. though i still want to go somewhere..
but i think its better not to be out there somewhere. lol.. sound stupid..
reach home.. sleep... wake up.. watch NDP.. OMG.. ANIMAX.. BATMAN BEGINS..
now sitting on my favorite chair that MELVIN broke this morning...
haay.. i wanted to say some things.. i wanted to say what i really feel..
but.. i guess its not appropriate to mentions those... nobody visits this blog..
and nobody cares also...
it just hurts to see how fast....................... things change....
how fast i'm forgotten..... how fast i was replaced with someone else..
it hurts to know that when i finally learned to love that person.. really love that person..
and in the end i'm just nothing... i know im too much.. i know sometimes im wrong..
i get jealous very easy.. i get too protective... i do what i want and never listen..
and im short.. but i wanted to change... it was so sudden... it was too shocking..
but what can i do now?... its too late.. that person have her own life already.......
she doesn't even think about you anymore...
just have to accept what you were told.. ( talking to myself )
i just have to pretend... trying my best to pretend......
-12:52 AM
Monday, August 9, 2010
yellow! (learn from brian)
=) i dunno what to say...
today.. i dunno why.. happy but not happy...
hahaha.. get it?.. lol...
sound so stupid.. hahaha..
anyway.. i must be happy.. must be happy...
must be happy.. must be happy... must be happy..
must be happy.. =)
halfway leave church coz need to buy something..
haha.. also i feel it is better not to be there..
oh yeah.. im back to music... lol... but i play next month..
hmm.. though i don't know what people think about me anymore..
i threw a lot of this.. i turned back on a lot of stuff..
but in the end.. nothing happen.. hahaha..
now trying to change everything back to normal...
And... Theo is dead... =)
I can't be theo anymore...
so Spark is back..
-1:42 AM
-1:32 AM
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Must work again.. but i don't know why am i working for.. hahahaha..
anyway.. tmr.. got another course again.. 9.30pm till 5pm.. hahaha.. so long..
ytd one was boring... hmm...................................................................................
got nothing to say...
PRETENDING IS SO MUCH BETTER FOR ME.
haha.. bhes. see. tama ako.. hahaha..
-3:25 PM
Monday, August 2, 2010
Alone at home again... back to the same old life..
must get used to it again..
-1:22 PM
haay. i work for something.. i got a job for something..
but now i don't know if i still need that something..
hahaha. anyway. tmr i going kallang for course 7pm - 10pm..
though i know nobody visits this blog.. i'm just telling this coz i know
its a waste of time.. they say very boring...
but who cares anyway... haha..
-2:35 AM
Sunday, August 1, 2010
TIME TO CHANGE THEO..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
and... GET USED TO IT!
-11:55 PM
THEO!!!! TANGA TANGA MOH!!!!
BAKIT KA BA NAGKAKAGANYAN?!!!
HINDI KA NA NIYA MAHAL!!! KINALIMUTAN KA NA NIYA!!!
-10:05 PM
HEADACHE!!!!!
MY BURN IN MY ARM HURTS!!!!!!
MY CUT IN MY HANDS HURTS!!!!!
:'(
-9:52 PM
"MADALI LANG NAMAN MAHALIN SI THEO EH"
my filipino friends always say....
but they can't tell me na MADALI LANG DIN AKO KALIMUTAN.
-9:40 PM
