CONFUSED.

hmm. very confuse right now? thinking of all the possibilities. thinking of what will happen next. thinking of what does it really mean. now i'm waiting. waiting for the answer. but now must be happy. must think positive. later going out. don't want anyone thing that there is something bothering me. must act normal. hmm. thinking positive. hmm.. not giving up/giving up.. at least there might be 50/50 chance. maybe not so confident lah. 20/80? or 30/70? haha.. at least still have something to hope for. haha.. enough for me.. at least i'm still there.. better than don't have anything at all. =) but still have a lot of questions. WHO? WHAT? WHY? WHEN? WHERE? HOW?. hahaha.. really a lot. hehe. but all i can do is wait for someone. wait for reply. wait for answers. wait for what might happen next. haha.

ok. another phrase. "ONE WORD CAN CHANGE EVERYTHING." correct or not?.. ok lah. maybe not one word. but if you say something to someone you can't return the time just to change what you already said right?.. so be mindful of every word you say. it might create confusions, hatred, or misunderstanding. but of course lah. the out come depends on what you say. haha. so it also can create happiness, joy, comfort, etc. actually i just realized it yesterday. haha. and thanks to yvonne. she said thats why everybody sad because everything i say are sad thoughts. hehe. so maybe i'm right from the start to keep everything myself. always act happy. hide my feelings. lol. emo again. haha.

I REALLY CAN'T WAIT! but i have to wait. hahaha. anyone understands or get what i mean?...