I DON'T LIKE THIS DAY.

Sunday routine. go early to church. And today is "ARAW NG PASASALAMAT" or "THANKS GIVING DAY". I don't really feel this day. i dunnoe. i just hate it. haiz. 8.45am reach church for music prayer meeting, practice, then waste 2-3 hours doing nothing. actually i'm happy this morning while going to church. but after the stupid practice.......................... see something.............................. can't get to look at someone in the eye................. dunnoe lah! i just hate this day. and it didn't just stop there. i'll tell you later. hmm.. so after that service. handmime. sis janice made mistake and the preaching was not boring. funny. and here comes the but. even though its funny. can't make myself to be really happy. after service. eating and i really don't know what to do. haay. went to china square or something. just lepak there only. ok. to be honest. some parts i'm enjoying. but the same feeling is still there. keep on seeing things that i shouldn't react or feel anything coz i'm not suppose to. i don't have the authority or the right to feel this way. but i couldn't help myself but to feel that way. so tried to cheer myself up and talk in front of everyone. talk crap. say stupid things just to help me forget. 7.30pm go home. in the mrt i dun feel like talking. dun feel like smiling. no matter how far, any situation there is. still the same thing will happen. its like magnet. attract and repel. but i can only see the attraction. fuck sia. going down the train, feel so emo. dunno if i should be happy or not. AARRGGHH!! I HATE THIS DAY!!!



PS to NO.3
i'm suspecting two person.
but the other one was really doing things
that would make me think it is you.
SHITNESS naman oh!
hindi na nakakatuwa. lalo lang ako naaasar.
(just said it in tagalog coz sounds nicer)
ACTIONS REALLY SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.