ALL ABOUT ME

2010-12-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

i regret what i did.. i seriously never gain anything from doing that.
i thought i soon can be happy already.
but now.. i totally regret it..
but its too late to go back..
and who wants a stupid guy like me.. haha..
anyway.. even if i didn't do those..
from the start i know that its always been that person..
im not expecting anything.. and i dun want to spoil peoples happiness.
im just reflecting..
i just want to be happy..
i just don't want to be lonely anymore...
haay.. but now.. everythings back from the way it was before..

2010-12-25T03:33:00.001+08:00

merry christmas to you... =( haay..

2010-12-24T12:41:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i feel so stupid.. HAHAHAHAHA!
i dunno lah.. a lot lah.
first. i feel that YOU cheated me.
second. in christmas some more!
third. got one guy tell me that i interfere with his love life.
the girl say sry and they so good already then i come in.
so now its my fault ah?.. haay..
forth. no gift from my parents. haha.
fifth. i feel that i nvr accomplish anything this year.
sixth. though i know you did love me. i feel that from the start. you still like him.
seventh. im always the one left out.
eighth. no chance of coming back.
ninth. i want xbox. lol.
tenth. nobody msg me anymore. hahaha.. just bored lah..
eleventh. hmm.. lets see..
i nvr see lunar eclipse.. haha.
twelve. i learn to like looking at stars at night bcoz of someone.
but now, that someone told me its stupid.
thirteenth. dun wan to say...

anyway.. have a lot lah.. i cannot explain..
haay.. stress ah..

2010-11-28T18:25:00.002+08:00

i still haven't moved on.
i still get jealous whenever you talk to him.
whenever you laugh with him.
i feel so stupid.
knowing that you still like him.
knowing that all this time, im just some other guy.

2010-11-12T11:56:00.000+08:00

long time never blog.. haay.. still feeling stupid..

2010-10-14T02:52:00.001+08:00

seriously... now i feel so stupid...

2010-10-14T01:25:00.003+08:00

people! my phone cannot msg..
cock sia.. hahahaha.. haven't pay..

hmm.. at least now i know..
at least now i know what you really feel..
though i find it all bad about me..
i hope there is still something you find good about me..
you won't be surprised..
but true right?..
sorry.. somehow i know i piss you off..
that's why i don't know how to approach you anymore..

2010-10-11T04:25:00.002+08:00

now learning how to play this song.

2010-10-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

haay..
it feels like im a nuisance..

2010-10-09T23:42:00.003+08:00

err.. i dunno what to do...
give or not?
how to talk?
how to approach?..
haay..

2010-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

2010-10-08T00:36:00.003+08:00

hmm... don't even think of me na..
don't even talk about me na..
i knew it was him..

anyway.. i've bought it just for you..
but i have this feeling that your expecting to get it
from someone else...
hmm..
if someone else gave you.
then i guess i'm not gonna give mine..

2010-10-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

2010-10-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

advance happy birthday! =)

2010-10-07T00:08:00.001+08:00

ang hirap maghintay sa wala...
i guess i don't deserve a second chance...

2010-10-06T01:07:00.001+08:00

i miss you..
i love you..
i really do..

2010-10-04T02:31:00.003+08:00

After this?... after that?...
what's next?.. :'(
though it made me happy..
its still the same.. :'(
scared that after that..
its over...

nothing will change...
:'(

2010-10-03T02:16:00.001+08:00

2010-10-03T00:32:00.001+08:00

AARRRGGGGHHH! just one more promise!...
and after that?.. what?.. i don't know.. :'(

2010-10-02T03:43:00.001+08:00

:'(

2010-10-02T01:53:00.002+08:00

from the start..
i knew that i shouldn't have ask that..
i already know that answer..
haay.. really.. you're so dumb.

2010-10-02T00:53:00.002+08:00

this sucks....
i knew you were doubting me already...
either way.. i think im not there anymore...
well.. i know there is always someone else...
i guess im the only one who really have fallen...
its just me....

2010-10-01T12:19:00.001+08:00

ARGH!!!!
nakakaasar ka theo!
bagal bagal moh!
tatanga tanga kasi.
yan! napala moh!
huli ka na!
wala ka na magagawa!

2010-10-01T03:30:00.000+08:00

i did reply.. but i guess im too late..
no.. im too late.. :'(

2010-10-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

:'(
i guess im too late.. :'(

2010-09-30T01:16:00.000+08:00

haay.. didn't mean to be a nuisance... =(

2010-09-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

nakalimutan na ako ='(
d n ako pinpansin... ='(

2010-09-25T00:49:00.001+08:00

wanted to see you..
but i can't..
you wanted to be free..
so i'll go away...

2010-09-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

whenever i don't have work..
i always go there..
hoping i might have a chance...
then your message came.
i thought i really have a chance..
wanted to talk about it..
though i really wanted to see you..
when you told me.. "I don't want to see you"..
felt so hurt...
but its what you want...

2010-09-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO FORGET!!!!
I WANT TO MOVE ON!!!
BUT WHENEVER I TRY..
ARGH!!!
SHE DON'T CARE ABOUT ME ANYMORE!
AND YET! STILL!
AHHHHH!
I'M SO STUPID!!!!!!!

2010-09-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

I miss this song..
since 1st year high school in phil..

2010-09-09T02:09:00.002+08:00

What's on your mind? - facebook.

anyway...
dunno what to say...
sick already..
fever.. muscle crams..
cuts.. burns..
headache..
3days straight 11am till closing...
untill saturday...
and sunday must wake up very early..
haay...
but its ok...
who cares anyway...
hahahaha...
after church go home straight..
and sleep...

2010-09-07T00:18:00.002+08:00

haay..
totoo naman ako...
ito talaga nararamdaman ko...
haay...
not feeling the same na kasi...
kaya ganun pakiramdam moh..
sige..
sorry na poh sa lahat...
hindi na ako mangungulit...
try ko na hindi na din magpakita sayo...
naaasar ka lang pagnkikita moh ko...
ingtz..

2010-09-06T10:20:00.007+08:00

i miss you more..
whenever i think about you..

4days already..
hahha.. must tahan..
I CAN DO THIS!

i feel i'm not there anymore.
i think i never even cross your mind..
but deep inside i really want to..
talk to you at least...
and i can't..
not knowing what you really want..
not knowing what you really feel..
makes me feel kinda hopeless..
but what can i do if you don't want to..
so here... trying my best not to..
though in my heart..
i really want to..

2010-09-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

hmm... alam ko na...
ramdam ko na..
well...
this past few weeks.. pansin ko naman..
nakikita ko naman ung pattern...
kaya hindi ako pumunta ng simbahan..
para maconfirm ko...
feeling ko kasi..
namimiss moh lang ako pag nkikita moh ako..
after today..
parang naconfirm ko na tama ako...
una.. tanong ko sa sarili ko..
bakit gnun?..
hindi consistent..
bakit sa una lang..
bakit parang bigla na lang ako nakakalimutan..
pero ngaun..
naramdaman ko talaga na wala na..
sa totoo lang.. matagal ko na nrrmdaman na..
nanjan parin sia... kahit konti.. kahit maliit..
nanjan cia at hindi ko mabura...
hindi ko mapalitan..
nkikita ko naman kasi n sia naiisip moh lagi..
na sia napapansin moh...
saka masaya ka pag kasama moh sia..
i'm trying to be happy naman..
pero..
araw araw.. lalo lang kita namimiss..
un ang totoo..
aun nga lang..
pansin ko din na unti unti ka narin nawawala...
sakin lang.. kung wala na talaga..
or gusto moh na ako tumigil..
sana lang masabi moh sakin..
para tumigil na ako...
para wala ka na papansinin n theo...
lagi moh sinasabi sakin na wag kita pagkatiwalaan..
pero nandun na ung tiwala ko eh...
kahit minsan.. nasasaktan ako sa mga sinasabi moh sakin..
sa mga salita moh.. nawawala naman agad un sakin..
so i hope you can trust me din...
kahit konti lang.. hehe..
promise.. basta sabihin moh lang ung totoo...
titigil na ako..
hindi na ako mngungulit..
hindi na sasama loob or araw moh dahil sakin...
naguguluhan na kasi ako...
gusto ko lang malinawan...
nahihirapan na kasi ako...
sorry sa lahat..
sana pansinin moh tong post na to...
or may masabi ka man lang...
alam ko naman kasing wala ka na gana kausp ako...

2010-09-02T15:17:00.001+08:00

	FM Static - Moment Of Truth .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

i got your picture in my wallet~~
and phone number to call it~
and i miss you more~
whenever i think about you~

2010-09-01T11:23:00.001+08:00

goin to work already...
physically ok..
mentally fine..
emotionally disabled..
lol..

2010-09-01T03:08:00.002+08:00

didn't even miss me...
didn't even remember me..
doesn't even think of me..
i knew it..
only misses me whenever......
nvm......... :(
just a friend...
its not my business...

2010-08-31T15:40:00.002+08:00

waiting for your~~
call im sick, call im angry~~
call im desperate for your voice~~
listening~
to the song we used to sing~~
in the car~
do you remember~
butterfly's~
early summer~~
its playing on repeat~
just like when we would meet~

coz i was born~~
to tell you i love you~~
and i am torn~~
to do what i have to~~
to make you mine~
and stay with me tonight~~

lol... singing at home..
very bored...

2010-08-31T02:34:00.000+08:00

:'( i miss her....

2010-08-30T14:00:00.001+08:00

waiting..
waiting..
waiting..

2010-08-30T13:27:00.001+08:00

APRIL 11 2010..
I miss my post on that day..

2010-08-30T13:20:00.002+08:00

4pm start work..
dunno what to do...
so bored..
and i kept thinking of things...
need to keep myself busy...

2010-08-30T05:18:00.000+08:00

I know..
I feel..
I see..
No matter what i do..
No matter how hard i try..
No matter how i show i care..
I can't make you happy..

2010-08-30T02:03:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!

can't sleep..
erased what i really wanted to say more than 5times...
SERIOUSLY! I'M ANGRY WITH YOU!
Everytime i see you status...
I feel like whacking you!
FUCK LAH! CB! KNN!
I won't let you take advantage!
You see got chance then suddenly you will say those things!

2010-08-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

after seeing those...
after hearing those words from you...
i felt really hopeless...
feeling so dead...
maybe its all gone...
It hurts a lot! :'(

2010-08-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

i wanted to know..
but its not my business...
even if i know...
it has nothing to do with me...
skip church coz i want to know something...
i wanted to know if its true...
but in the end..
im still not sure....
=(

2010-08-29T14:17:00.001+08:00

i wanted to know something..
what are you gonna do now...

2010-08-29T04:21:00.000+08:00

waiting for something to happen...
i really wanted to know what am i to you...
=(

2010-08-28T00:35:00.002+08:00

.... don't know what to do...
im not really sure what you feel...
i wanted to ask...
i wanted to know...
TMR!!... i'll try... depends on the reaction...
depends on the outcome..
then maybe i will stop..
let go...
continue...
forget..
love...
avoid...
depends....
=(

2010-08-27T13:31:00.000+08:00

hmm... i want to ask..................
nvm.... =(

2010-08-25T04:54:00.003+08:00

	Bad English - When I See You Smile .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Bad English - When I See You Smile

Sometimes I wonder
How I'd ever make it through,
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue

'Cause sometimes it seems
Like this world's closing in on me,
And there's no way of breaking free
And then I see you reach for me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain

When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Baby there's nothing in this world
that could ever do
What a touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew

And when the rain is falling
I don't feel it,
'cause you're here with me now
And one look at you baby
Is all I'll ever need,
you're all I'll ever need

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain

When I see you smile
Oh yeah, baby when I see you smile at me

Sometimes I wanna give up
I wanna give in,
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you, baby
And everything's alright,
everything's alright, so right

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything, yeah
When I see you smile
I see a ray of light, oh oh,
I see it shining right through the rain, yeah

When I see you smile
I can face the world, oh oh,
you know I can do anything
When I see you smile, oh yeah
Baby, when i see you smile
Smile at me

2010-08-25T00:46:00.002+08:00

i feel that.. somehow you don't need me na...
ewan ko lang poh... pero un ang pakiramdam ko..
feeling ko masaya ka na poh....
feeling ko hindi kita mapasaya...
marami naman na kasing iba jan...
hindi moh na ako kailangan..

2010-08-22T02:09:00.001+08:00

Losing it all.. one by one....

2010-08-21T14:01:00.003+08:00

People can change .

People can forgive and give another chance .

Broken things can be mended and we can give it a try .

But why can't you ?

2010-08-21T01:04:00.003+08:00

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don't know what to say.. :'(

2010-08-20T03:40:00.000+08:00

It's not right to feel this way... :'(
You're nothing anymore...
You shouldn't feel like that...
Stop disturbing her...
Know your place...
You can't make her happy...
She's not interested anymore...
No use seeing her...
Your not even in her mind anymore...
She doesn't want to be with you anymore...
There's someone else already...
She doesn't love you anymore! so shut up! and go away! :'(

2010-08-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

THEO's getting owned..

2010-08-19T03:42:00.000+08:00

don't know what to do anymore....
i can't hold myself back...
i want you to do what you want...
but i kept on doing things that i shouldn't do...
i don't want to bother you anymore coz i know...
i know that im just being a nuisance...
asking sutpid stuff... asking things that i shouldn't ask...
i want you to be happy.. and i know im doing the opposite...
though i admit.... i miss you more everyday.... :'(
i know we're not feeling the same....
so im really sorry....
sorry.... sorry... sorry... :'(

2010-08-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

im starting to feel that im becoming a nuisance.... :'(

2010-08-18T04:20:00.002+08:00

gotta sleep na.. my work start 5pm.. lol.
hmm.. im happy! im happy! im happy! hahhahaha...
thursday no work... i want to buy shoe, play pool,
watch movie, eat dinner outside, and.... hmmm...
~~i want to see her...~~

2010-08-18T03:09:00.001+08:00

sometimes i find myself alone. thinking.
"why?"
"why can't you just accept that you're nothing special anymore?"
"what should i do?"
"should i feel this way?
"you know she's happy. so stop bothering her."
a lot more....
i want to be happy...
really happy..
i want to be the way i used to be..
but i can't help it.... i always feel that way...
every now and then.. you always comes out of my mind...
always wondering what you really feel..
what are you thinking..
why did you do this?...
.......... the truth is...
i don't really know why are you doing this...
i don't really know your reason for leaving me...
i don't really know what to do right now...
:'(

2010-08-18T00:08:00.001+08:00

though things are improving.. the feeling are still the same...

2010-08-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

i can't do it...
too scared to ask...
coz i already know the answer....

2010-08-10T10:43:00.001+08:00

NOSE BLEEDING! HAHAHAHA!

2010-08-10T00:52:00.002+08:00

not feeling well..
i can't make a fist out of my left hand...
but still need to work tmr..
haha.. and they put me 11am till 10.30 pm..
lol.. confirm damn tiring...

anyway.. today play bowling for the first time..
lol.. actually second.. but my first time was in 2008 i think..
and i only roll two balls only.. haha.. well who cares anyway..
hmm.. im shit at that game.. wanted to play pool but too many people..
went to arcade.. and we owned the stupid punching game.. haha..
that is the most fun thing i did today... haha.. relieve stress.. hahaha..

then eat at some park.. hmm.. didn't eat well.. dunno.. haha..
then.. hmm... sit down.. talk.. play.. that's all..
went home with my parents.. though i still want to go somewhere..
but i think its better not to be out there somewhere. lol.. sound stupid..

reach home.. sleep... wake up.. watch NDP.. OMG.. ANIMAX.. BATMAN BEGINS..
now sitting on my favorite chair that MELVIN broke this morning...

haay.. i wanted to say some things.. i wanted to say what i really feel..
but.. i guess its not appropriate to mentions those... nobody visits this blog..
and nobody cares also...

it just hurts to see how fast....................... things change....
how fast i'm forgotten..... how fast i was replaced with someone else..
it hurts to know that when i finally learned to love that person.. really love that person..
and in the end i'm just nothing... i know im too much.. i know sometimes im wrong..
i get jealous very easy.. i get too protective... i do what i want and never listen..
and im short.. but i wanted to change... it was so sudden... it was too shocking..
but what can i do now?... its too late.. that person have her own life already.......
she doesn't even think about you anymore...
just have to accept what you were told.. ( talking to myself )
i just have to pretend... trying my best to pretend......

2010-08-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

yellow! (learn from brian)

=) i dunno what to say...

today.. i dunno why.. happy but not happy...

hahaha.. get it?.. lol...

sound so stupid.. hahaha..

anyway.. i must be happy.. must be happy...

must be happy.. must be happy... must be happy..

must be happy.. =)

halfway leave church coz need to buy something..

haha.. also i feel it is better not to be there..

oh yeah.. im back to music... lol... but i play next month..

hmm.. though i don't know what people think about me anymore..

i threw a lot of this.. i turned back on a lot of stuff..

but in the end.. nothing happen.. hahaha..

now trying to change everything back to normal...

And... Theo is dead... =)

I can't be theo anymore...

so Spark is back..

2010-08-09T01:32:00.001+08:00

2010-08-03T15:25:00.003+08:00

Must work again.. but i don't know why am i working for.. hahahaha..
anyway.. tmr.. got another course again.. 9.30pm till 5pm.. hahaha.. so long..
ytd one was boring... hmm...................................................................................
got nothing to say...
PRETENDING IS SO MUCH BETTER FOR ME.
haha.. bhes. see. tama ako.. hahaha..

2010-08-02T13:22:00.002+08:00

Alone at home again... back to the same old life..
must get used to it again..

2010-08-02T02:35:00.002+08:00

haay. i work for something.. i got a job for something..
but now i don't know if i still need that something..
hahaha. anyway. tmr i going kallang for course 7pm - 10pm..
though i know nobody visits this blog.. i'm just telling this coz i know
its a waste of time.. they say very boring...
but who cares anyway... haha..

2010-08-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

TIME TO CHANGE THEO..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
and... GET USED TO IT!

2010-08-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

THEO!!!! TANGA TANGA MOH!!!!
BAKIT KA BA NAGKAKAGANYAN?!!!
HINDI KA NA NIYA MAHAL!!! KINALIMUTAN KA NA NIYA!!!

2010-08-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

HEADACHE!!!!!
MY BURN IN MY ARM HURTS!!!!!!
MY CUT IN MY HANDS HURTS!!!!!
:'(

2010-08-01T21:40:00.003+08:00

"MADALI LANG NAMAN MAHALIN SI THEO EH"
my filipino friends always say....

but they can't tell me na MADALI LANG DIN AKO KALIMUTAN.

2010-07-31T13:15:00.002+08:00

hmm.. physically tired.. mentally confused... emotionally hurt..
hahahaha.. nothing.. what to do next ah?.. i like dun want to go church..

2010-07-31T02:00:00.001+08:00

PARENG PABEE..
CONDOLENCE...

2010-07-30T15:16:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA!!!

anyway. physically sick but still need to go to work.. =)

2010-07-30T13:50:00.004+08:00

There was a boy and a girl broke up due to some circumstances.
after 1years and 3 months,
The boy came back crying and told the girl he still loves her.
The girl replied,
"only stupid people will accept someone who left and hurt him/her"
The boy was hurt and turned back.
The girl suddenly hugged him and said, "and i'm one of them".

A true story. right? karen.

but they need to leave each other again coz they are too far from each other.
but they are good friends now. hahaha. he thinks so.

2010-07-30T13:09:00.000+08:00

=)

(",)

:>

:)

2010-07-30T12:58:00.000+08:00

INTERNAL DAMAGE!!!!

2010-07-29T14:39:00.004+08:00

	Yeng Constantino & Jay-R Siabo - Himala .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Himala
by Yeng and Jay-r

Pangarap ko'y makita kang
Naglalaro sa buwan
Inalay mo sa akin ang
Gabing walang hangganan

Refrain:
(Hindi mahanap/di mahagilap) sa lupa ang pag-asa
Nakikiusap (na lang/sa buwan)

Chorus:
Himala, kasalanan bang
Humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala
Kasalanan bang
Humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala

Pangarap ko'y makita ang
Liwanag ng umaga
Naglalambing sa iyong mga mata

(repeat Refrain and Chorus)

actually rivermaya sang this but they remake.
......... HIMALA......

2010-07-27T15:01:00.001+08:00

JUST WAKE UP! hahahaha!
never sleep for almost 2days..
still need to go to work... =)

2010-07-26T11:59:00.001+08:00

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

2010-07-26T11:58:00.000+08:00

OH YEAH! I FORGOT! YOU'RE SHORT!!!!!!!!

2010-07-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

WHAT CAN YOU DO?!!!

WHO WILL LIKE YOU?!!

YOU'RE A FAT STUPID PIG!
LOSER DUMB ASS!
(sorry for the words but i think its appropriate)

2010-07-16T11:15:00.004+08:00

Men are 80% decisive and the other are just gravy.

2010-07-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

FREAKING EMO.. FREAKING SAD.. DUNNO WHY...

2010-06-27T01:07:00.004+08:00

Took my laptop beside me.
Sat on one corner.
Hug the jacket i lend here just now.
Cry for being so useless.
Cry for not able to make someone happy.

2010-06-20T02:58:00.001+08:00

came back from camp. made a lot of friends...

2010-06-14T11:20:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU..
I've been waiting for those three words everyday..

2010-06-12T05:17:00.001+08:00

TRICIA's out of PBB house.. :(

2010-06-09T17:06:00.006+08:00

MISERY NEEDS COMPANY....

2010-06-09T15:27:00.001+08:00

I just discovered..

WALA NA UNG HEART! :'( *sobbing*

2010-06-09T15:24:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU Na!

2010-06-09T13:38:00.004+08:00

One and only you
By Parokya ni Edgar

It took one look
And forever laid out in front of me
One smile then I died
Only to be revived by you

There i was
Thought i had everything figured out
Goes to show just how much i know
'bout the way life plays out...

Chorus:
I take one step away
but i find myself coming back to you
My one and only, one and only you...ooh...

Now i know
That i know not a thing at all
Except the fact that i am yours
And that you are mine

Ooh
They told me that this wouldn't be easy
And no
I'm not one to complain...

(Chorus 2X)

you..

2010-06-09T13:27:00.002+08:00

.....

sorry for not updating.. hmm.
lately.. i'm just wondering.. what if i have a twin brother or sister. lol.
so random..

anyway.. i sleep only for 2 hours.. can't really sleep..
hmm. actually something really bothers me..
and i feel its all my fault..

now.. so boring. really boring.. extremely boring. hehe.
my life is so boring.

oh yah! anyone want to play pokemon?... in laptop..
i can give you.. hehe.. ( just trying to be happy.)

2010-05-23T21:12:00.002+08:00

I also have feelings.. I also get hurt.. I also feel pain..

2010-05-22T22:54:00.003+08:00

Playing this game now.

2010-05-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN JOY FREMISTA DELOS SANTOS!!!!